It’s ten o’clock now, and I’ve had a wonderful day, or at least wonderful for my standards. I didn’t do anything out of the ordinary or have something spectacular happen, I just felt good. There’s been no debilitating anxiety or crushing depression, I haven’t cried, and I haven’t done anything stupidly impulsive. I’m sort of happy. Stable.
Do “normal” people feel this way? I mean, they must. I could accomplish anything within my mental and physical capacity right now and do so without any emotionality holding me back.
Of course, I don’t know how long this will last, my good moods rarely go on for more than a day. But if I know that I have this state of being to look forward to once my medication is stabilized and as my therapy continues, I can better put up with the days that suck. I have concrete evidence that things will get better, that there is some place of emotional stability that is possible for my body to achieve. I just have to keep working.