Weight Unhappiness

I’ve been having such problems with body image lately. This happens every time I start get to a stable weight or see a picture of me wearing a bathing suit. Now, I know that I am somewhere between 110 and 115–right were I need to be at five foot four–and on the lower end of that range, but those numbers still freak me out. Last year, at this time, I was down to 100 or maybe even less. And I also know that being at this weight is healthy and is supposed to make my medication work better. Supposedly, I’ll have fewer mood swings, I’ll be less obsessive, compulsive, anxious, and depressed. But while my head feels loads clearer, and I have been able to get a lot more homework done, I do not feel much happier. Not at all.

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2 thoughts on “Weight Unhappiness

  1. Recovery is a process, and no matter how well you’re doing, disordered thoughts will surface occasionally. Don’t let this get to you–you’ve already said your mental clarity and physical strength have improved, and full psychological recovery will come eventually as well.

    Your blog is entertaining and well-written, and I wish you the best in your continued recovery!

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